done with xmas shopping for cambria. bills are on time and stress is LESS. My relationship is going great. ALL my true friendships and are all taken care of for xmas as well. sigh. now to get my own place... the plot continues..=]

is myself.. doing things for me. trying to be in a relationship

work is good

xmas is stressing me out.

i'm so tired of my dependency. i'm only counting on myself... PERIOD!

You are wonderfully social and love to be with people, sharing warmth and vitality. You have a very broad and interesting view of life and can fit in with almost anyone you meet — some people might describe you as a chameleon because you’re so good at changing yourself to fit a situation. Because of all this Leo is drawn to you, and you will be great friends.

Your sign is classed under the element of air: you have the ability to increase the warmth of Leo’s fire by fanning their flames. In astrology, the combined influence of air and fire usually produces a relationship that is close and has lots of sexual excitement.

You’re concerned with diplomacy and balance. You hate any sort of argument or disruption to the peace of your life, and will go to great lengths to maintain that calm. Leo is different: they have an ‘in your face’ attitude and like to call a spade a shovel, even if that unsettles the status quo.

You’ll see Leo’s honesty as a plus, but you’d prefer them to use a more polished way of presenting the truth. You don’t believe that abrasiveness helps get the point across, so Leo’s attitude could rattle you at times.

There’s a strong romantic attraction between you, and you make an eye-catching couple. You have charisma, and draw people to you like a magnet. This will bring you luck, and your partnership will be successful professionally and socially.

As the two of you get to know each other, you’ll realise that your common interests include such things as hosting parties and going to dinners and other functions.

You have great camaraderie and the prospect of a good relationship with Leos born between 23 July and 4 August. You’ll be very attracted to them and will enjoy their progressive thinking and their independence.

You could feel a little destabilised by Leos born between 5 August and 14 August — the Sagittarian and Jupiter influence means too much change for your liking. You like variety, but their heavy travel agenda will be a little too much. These Leos are always on the go; they will tire you out after a while unless you’re prepared to jet-set with them.

For the most part, you and Leo get on pretty well, sexually. But there are some Leos you are going to get on extra well with: those born between 15 August and 23 August. Aries and Mars co-rule these people, and this brings out their passion and fire. You can have a great friendship and a great sexual connection with them.

BWHAHAHHHA it's real. Cambria abruptly got the swine flu. she is on antibiotics and antivirals. poor baby can finally hold food down... you know how hard it is to watch your four year old with gut rot... can't throw up anymore.. her little ribcage sucking in and out. for 24 hours straight... worst ever.. i got a flu shot today she is waaaay better today.. thank goodness!!

just got back from work wasn't  too bad. just tired. that is all.. night night.

ew.. i just read 4 to 5 post before this one talking bout how i'm friends with travie.. from GCH.. the guys a snob... what was i thinkin.. lol he never replies to my messages. so what ever... travis mccoy is THAT guy that thinks he's better than everyone else.. he may as well be wearing a ed hardy shirt... DOUCHE BAG. on the other hand other members of the band... cool. Eric the bassist. Dejesus... the cutie patootie waving the flag who claims to be travies mini me... but no baby boy your better! and tyler plays keys and guitar... it's just so disappointing to meet the one you been swooning over ever since i could remember.. been a fan of GYM CLASS for a LONG time.. so cool to kick it with them every time they come to vegas.. but TRAVIE... your a snobby asshole.. haha that is all. gah.

life is good so far...
struggling with bills work has been slow or no hours...
headed to the courthouse now.. BOOOOOO.

pretty good time. wish i wasn't so damn broke. i was a boxer. evan was black face don king.. only by the end of the night was getting threatened by black people that were offended... GAY. anyway my matty was fred flinstone. too cute. now i gotta work today.. ugh. can't believe it's nov already... 2010 is gonna be wayyyy better.

watching Kat williams trying to get myself out to the gym...
been drinking too much..
gonna wait til my bday.. OCT 22nd! put it on your calendars.

friday night i closed the bar with e pautz. the most awesome wonderful red neck ever... haha i heart him lol went to this local bar called Office Bar right across the street from work.. we got faded. me molly and evan show. psshh we are the party. anyway drank way too much. some random guy tried to fuck with me and my friends. pautz gave him a few trys to get the fuck up and leave, he beats the shit outta him i kick him while hes on the ground... gah.. later find out six four used to fuck with my home girl sarah, which is weirding me out still. but its not going on anymore.. 430 rolls around we end up driving a friend home staying at her place, then go to evans to get my car and it's not there.. ok we are beyond wasted... spend zero money at the bar, but since my car was TOWED i dropped 230 to get it out. but i love evan so much true friend dropped half for me... went to bed around 9am and went to work at 4. so hurting... six four was bartending. didnt say a word to him because my drunk txt disease came out and i don't remember what i txt him since my phone erases the sent msgs. fuckin too much fun... local bars are way better than clubs. hahaha...ive grounded myself til my birthday. OCT 22nd get your calenders out!!

my BFF jessica is about to pop out her kid... exciting..
VA isn't happening..
Cambria is learning to tie her shoe.
my teeth just got cleaned =D
and uuuhh that is all.

going to do it big too!!! anyway trying to plan a trip to VA it must happen... aah kinda nervous its not though... work is fab. ate at the new cafe on the strip last night with the fam. it was really nice.

six four is such a mans man.. more emotional with his dude friends. ew kinda a turn off.. too much of a dude bro and too afraid to show any emotion towards females...

gotta clean my room...gah.

work at four gonna try to get to the gym but doubt thats happening considering the time. =[ k thats it. later gator.

house party last night insane.. not as many people as last time.. but had a fuckin blast me my girl brittny and MOLLY ow ow!! great fucking times... can't even begin to explain all the hidden and inside jokes.. wow. LOL smiley face.. ew they actually played that song at the house party.. WTF?!

wow. sunday late night tip. friends from NYC flew in from hawaii for a 17hr layover. lol so we went to drais after hours . me molly ev dejesus and ax. fucking great times... ax never been here and his first words when we woke the next afternoon was, "you ever seen the hangover?" thats how last night felt!" bwhahahah SUCCESS!!  as long as they had a good time... wish i couldve spent more time with dejesus... was most definitley a GRRRRREAT night. slept all day yesterday and just woke up right now. tending bar tonight. yay.

so i have a crush on a dude i'm hooking up with.. he is so sweet everythings cool it's just when we around others i'm more of a homie. lol oh well. tryin to stay away from dudes like the last..BWHAHAHAH wannabe hustlers that have NO personality speak when spoken to and is just plain as boring can be dumb quotes that sound like mr miiagee. ugh hairy like animal dunzo the fucking clown. lol not looking anymore. not going to call the sweet dude. i want him to chase me. ha. been casually  talking to matt cambrias dad again. just friendly hi how are you txt. still haven't spoken going on 4 years. work is awesome. i love bartending. i have the next three days off.. fucking bored already. gonna bum it too and not dance take a mini break from all this work shmurk. got friends in town. my girl morgan. sorry i've been flaking. so damn busy i need ME time. gym and chuck e cheese today. thats all i got planned. haha. k bye.

unreal how i'm friends with my number one on my laminated "list" ya know the list, if you were married or with someone and you meet anyone from your LIST top 5 it's ok to cheat. hahaha travie number 1! and we friends now? fucking dope!

training behind the bar at work. Love the change of pace. time flies its kinda awesome.

Went to Sunset Cafe with my beautiful BFF Jessica who is pregnant is absolutely glowing! we caught up a little bit... ate honestly can say the best breakfast wrap EVER! Also Sarah pooh... ( is that odd i have pet names for my besties? LOL) went to cheesecake factory and caught up as well! she was exactly the same sarah happy and in love=]. i love her to death!! i needed that. To see them kinda grounded me. i miss them! its crazy how our lives turned.

yesterday robot chicken on tour with special guest gym class heros! holla atcha girl of course i knew they were going to be here so i invited my girl annie to come with and she did not hesitate! what was awesome to me was it was  a free show! really? we dont have to pay? fucking awesome. seen seth green kicked it with him for a bit seen breckin myer kicked it on the gym class bus with travie=] dejesus was standing out so they can sign and take pictures  which is cool and he remembered me! annie and i went on the bus travie invited me into his little lounge back part of the bus, i felt special. his two friends from la jolla seth green his lady ocasional bandmates would walk in to blaze, tim, dejesus their friend krystal. i totally kept my composure and wasn't all dumb groupie esque. lol we talked he showed pictures of when he was in highschool with long fat dreads! hot! i mean RAW... young travie NO TATTOOS! fucking adorable!!! needless to say i'm hoping to kick it with him. mad cool. laid back talented man. =] cheers.

 

so it's been a minute.. joined a gym. just found out i'll start training behind the bar at the hard rock!!! fucking stoked on that shit! hanging with old friends again... got a beach trip planned with evan in aug... need that last fix before this weird crazy weathered summer comes to an end. heading the pool now with my baby girl.... life is grand =]

first it was janis joplin hendrix and jimi morrison.. now Michael Jackson Farrah Fawcett and Ed Mcmahn sp? sad week it has been...

on that note... baby is about to start pre school... 100 a week! WTF. called matt and of course he didn't answer i wish he would help or maybe i should get off my ass and stop trying to be a super hero and File for CHILD SUPPORT. ya dig?

Weeks ago met the man of my dreams... he's cool i guess but after all that happened doesn't aknowledge my existance whatsoever... i mean who am i? to someone thats like everyone else except their circle of friends are in a different tax brackett. lol. travie txt me last night.. booooshhwaaaaa... what ever.. so in love with that fool for ever.. got my chance to kick it, fuct it up by being a dumb groupie and that's probably all he sees me as...

on another note. can someone punch me in the uterus? crampy mcgee for sure. and with that comes annoyance from all angles.. im sorry friends for snapping and being short... not 5'1" but snipppy. lol  everyone is getting on my nerves..

i need beach time... .oh wait in vegas... pool time?

follow me on twitter... / pixieden.

til then hitting the bubbler and drifting off into a XM radio coma.. Michael Jackson all day loooong.

Hey world. so i just moved into my house that my ma and i bought. cute little 3 bedroom 2 and half bath 2 car garage. with property tax and everything so we don't have to pay at the end of the year our mortgage is just under 800!!! what a fuckin steal. no more renting! lol. anyway hard rock is pretty good. kinda slow these days but everyone is awesome.

cambria is 4 now we went to disneyland last monday. and i effin lost or misplaced my camera with her whole 4th bday on it in the move! ugh. i hope i find it.

besides that. got lots to do today.... later

Went to Jet. was a total groupie, i couldnt help it, kicked it with travie and his crew. i was all screwed up. star struck only to look back at how stupid i must have sounded. couldnt pull it together lol. ungorgettable. awesome guys.=]

work is good... lovin the hard rock cafe and everyone there. this whole single thing is not working out as much as i  planned, been kickin it with Nino like every damn night... awesome times.. always.. smart, cute, personality, experience, likes sports... NOT GAY. lol so i admitt to lurkin his myspace page and him being others NINO, so i nicknamed him my Roo. lol my own hidden meaning lol.

pool time is good. catching good rays. drinks in the middle of the day. good times.

nothing too much going on.. life is great right about now. =]